Monday, May 9, 2011

A weird Mother's Day!

The smell of egg awoke me from a deep sleep, (I won't mention the time, cough, ok 12:30) and I sat up to see Jesse standing over me with an egg sandwich.  He informed me that this was just the first wave. After consuming my sandwich I was greeted with a tray full of scones, my fave, and the opportunity to sit and eat them in bed without any boys crawling over me. That part of the day was delightful.

Then the day got a bit more depressing. Normally, we all go to my parent's and the men make us dinner and do the dishes, but since we had all been together the day before, we decided to spend a restful day at home. Jesse tried to fully give me the day off, and that was nice, but then Peyton reminded me why I was feeling so off this Mother's Day. Being the computer wiz that he is, he's figured out how to look at pictures, and find the exact one he wants. For some reason he often goes to this picture...
He even knows how to zoom in closely on my "smiles"!
Usually, he just makes fun of the wrinkles in my shirt, saying my tummy is smiling (always flattering) but yesterday he had something else to say. Pointing at the picture he said, "She's all better." I confirmed that yes, I did feel better then, and he proceeded to say, "She can play with me." Well my heart bout broke in two. I couldn't stop the tears from coming. He will frequently say that he wants to kiss me better so I can play with him, but for some reason when he seemed so excited to see "old" me I felt so bad for not being able to be that Mom right now. It just made me feel a little guilty for getting any Mother's Day celebration, because I have not been the best Momma lately. I have to take my boys out to my parent's a few days a week just so they can get the rough and outdoor play they need.  I know this isn't a permanent condition, but last time I was pregnant, Peyton was much younger and we still lived at my parent's so it wasn't as noticeable to him. The fact that he is having such a hard time with it, is making it more difficult for me to cope with it.

The rest of the day was spent playing cards and making my Mom's gift. Of course, Jesse had more gifts for me, but I will keep those to myself! Unfortunately, the night ended on a bad note for him too. During his run, usually his foot warms up, but last night it didn't so he was feeling bummed. Tonight's run was better, so he is feeling more optimistic now. I hope you all had good Mother's Days and sorry if mine wasn't very exciting, but things will get better soon! I am telling Riley she should arrive June 15th now, we'll see how well she listens!
It was impossible to find a picture of my mom, she hates having her photo taken, so I settled for a group shot. She is in the plaid.
Love you Mom!

6 comments:

Jess @ Blonde Ponytail said...

Happy mothers day Tressa! Excited for you and your new addition!!!

I bet it is super challenging to have little ones while you can't be as "mobile" with them. Aw, this is so sweet!

Amanda@runninghood said...

How glorious to sleep in until 12;30!!! I must get caught up on your blog again. I was reading and then you went on a break after finding out you were prego right? and now time to get caught up! :)

5 Miles 2 Empty said...

Awe, I know that must have been hard to hear. But you are right, this is temporary. Doesn't make it any easier I am sure. hang in there and know that you are still a wonderful mommy!!

longlegsontheloose.com said...

don't you dare say you haven't been a good mommy!

tink said...

Happy Mother's Day, I can tell you are going to have one active healthy family. :)
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Colleen said...

Take that back... you're a great mommy! :)